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一个丹莫斯库玛食用者的自白

一个丹莫斯库玛食用者的自白

Tilse Sendas 著

A narrative of a cured skooma addict

一个丹莫斯库玛食用者的自白

对丹莫人而言，见到另一个丹莫人受制于“斯库玛”这种月亮糖精炼而出的毒品而与奴隶无异，是最让人作呕的了。这种成瘾毒药的受害者堕落、尊严尽失，听闻种种跟他们有关的可悲故事，实在叫人难以下咽。

那么，我为什么要强迫自己当着你们的面，巨细靡遗地娓娓道出我的罪孽和遗憾呢？

因为我希望藉由我的故事，能让更多人知晓从这种可悲状态获得救赎而产生的希望。我由衷希望其他也陷入斯库玛毒瘾惨况的人能因此而听到我的故事，听到我曾如何绝望，以及我如何重新找回自我，从自找的束缚中获得释放。

因为虎人全都知道只要对斯库玛上瘾，一日为斯库玛之奴，终生为斯库玛之奴。因为这道理尽为人知，所有人因而深信不疑。但那不是不变的真理，我就是活生生的证明。

奇迹的解药是不存在的，这种瘾头无药可医，也没有魔咒能让你脱离奔流血液之中的斯库玛兴奋感。

战胜斯库玛的关键，是要了解那种兴奋感，并接受自己对它的渴望，而且要屏除瘾头发作时所感觉到的羞耻感，那种羞耻感通常源于自己终究屈服于追求自身的舒适安逸。唯有通过这样的认知和理解，受害者才有机会拿回决定的主导权，解开绝望和希望相互纠缠的结。

简言之，只有认识和接受斯库玛，屈服其下的奴隶才有机会拿到钥匙，解开手脚铁铐，重获自由。

Confessions of a Dunmer Skooma Eater

Confessions of a Dunmer Skooma Eater

By Tilse Sendas

A narrative of a cured skooma addict

Confessions of a Dunmer Skooma Eater

Nothing is more revolting to Dunmer feeling than the sorry spectacle of another Dunmer enslaved by that derivative moon-sugar known as 'skooma.' And nothing is less appetising than listening to the pathetic tales of humiliation and degradation associated with a victim of this addictive drug.

Why, then, do I force myself upon you with this extended and detailed account of my sins and sorrows?

Because I hope that by telling my tale, the hope of redemption from this sorry state shall be more widely known. And because I hope that others who have also fallen into the sorry state of skooma addiction may therefore hear of my story, of how I fell into despair, and how I once again found myself and freed myself from my own self-imposed chains.

Because it is widely known to all Khajiit, who may be expected to know, that there is no cure for addiction to skooma, that once a slave to skooma, always a slave to skooma. Because this is widely known, it is taken to be true. But it is not true, and I am living proof.

There is no miracle cure. There is no potion to be taken. There is no magical incantation which frees you from the thrill of skooma running through your blood.

But it is through the understanding of that thrill, and the acceptance of the lust within oneself for that thrill, and the casting aside of the shame that the thrillseeker feels when he cannot set aside what becomes in the end his only comfort and pleasure, it is through this knowledge and understanding that the victim comes to the place where choices may be made, where despair and hope may be separated.

In short, only knowledge and acceptance can deliver into the slave's hands the key that opens his shackles and sets him free.